This blog has been rather like my crocheting recently, non existent and I apologise for that. I have recently had to start looking for a new job and the hubby and I have suffered another miscarriage, 4 months to the day that we miscarried previously. It's been a rough week or so, I feel as though I have been on an emotional see-saw, so happy to read the words pregnant on the digital test, then so devastated at the pains and bleeding that followed.
I have had to apologise to all the lovely people donating to the miscarriage association by buying my blankets, I have fallen behind by quite a bit but after this week I firmly intend on making up for lost time. As for our baby hopes, they've basically disappeared, I've a horrible wretched feeling deep down in my soul that although I can apparently make babies with no issues maybe my hormones are no longer strong enough to carry a baby successfully. I started late by today's and my own standards, maybe so late that C is the only baby we will have. I can't complain she is beautiful, my world and wonderful in every way, most importantly she is here, alive, healthy and I can't forget how lucky I am in that fact alone.
So next week I will be picking up my hook again and I will be crocheting, in memory of my 2 Angels, in memory of all the angels that never got to hold their mummy's little finger.
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